My First Colourpop! The Ultra Matte Lip

On Cyber Monday this year, I made the impulse decision to treat myself to something new. I almost never participate in Cyber Monday because I never have enough money around this time, but I was fortunate enough to have a few dollars to spare. Hearing so much about the legendary Colourpop Cosmetics and their liquid matte lipsticks, I sauntered over to their site to have a closer look. After watching swatching videos on Youtube; a necessity when you have a darker complexion, I picked the best 3 lipsticks to start with, paid my money, and sat in anticipation. Don’t you hate when you have to actually WAIT for something to come in the mail…?


Finally, Saturday comes! My package is here! I ran to the mailbox early in the morning but sure enough, it wasn’t there yet. I sulked back to my apartment to wait an hour or two. After some time, I ran to my mailbox again and lo and behold, my lippies are finally here!


L to R: Be-Dazzled, Limbo, Avenue.
With flash!


While I didn’t take any actual photos of the actual packaging (and frankly I’m too lazy to do so at the moment), I can say that it’s very simple: white with red accents at the top and bottom lids with holographic lettering. I’m a sucker for holographic ANYTHING so this was already a bonus point for Colourpop.


Be-Dazzled, without lip liner. Also, I really like my mouth dimple a lot.
Avenue, with MAC lip liner in Brick. There’s a filter obviously, but you get the idea!

Limbo, without any lip liner. Note to self: invest in new lip liner colors.
I was initially very skeptical that these wouldn’t look good because I like to try ’em before I buy ’em. In fact, I was so nervous that I closed my eyes while first applying Be-Dazzled and filming a video for my Snapchat story. But boy, am I glad I bought these! It was love at first…applying, and I flipped out when I saw how great they looked on me! I didn’t want to take them off at all when I was finished because they were THAT. FREAKING. COOL.

Quick run-through:
Be-Dazzled is a very deep-but-bright-at-the-same-time purple. Similar to MAC’s Heroine which I own, but it’s hella bright. It’s funky. And it’s perfect for when you want to just look fierce as f%@^!
Avenue is a dark cherry red (apparently it’s a yellow-red but to me it looks more cherry!). Redder than what I’m used to wearing on the reg, which is Ruby Woo usually, but it’s a really sweet color for when I don’t want to be too “loud” in my lipstick choice and prefer a more demure look. I find it ideal for practically ANY situation, but best for professional events and mostly-formal gatherings.
Limbo flipping ROCKS. After years of trying to find the perfect nude lipstick, I can’t believe I struck gold big time with this one! It’s actually really close to my skin tone and I love how it doesn’t wash out my face. I can see myself rocking this for any situation when I don’t feel like wearing any bright colors.

FINAL VERDICT: I’m super satisfied with my very first Colourpop lippies and I couldn’t have picked a better few shades to start my collection with. My only beef with it is that it’s a little hard for me to take off. I have to use LUSH Cosmetics’ Ultrabland facial cleanser to wipe it off because regular wet wipes won’t do. Of course, this is my first experience with liquid matte lipsticks so I’m sure I’ll get the hang of removal soon! Otherwise, all three of them get a 6/5 from me. I am definitely buying more from them again in the near future.

That’s my verdict; now what’s yours? Have you ever tried liquid matte lipsticks before?

Abeni, out!





How I Deal With My . Cramps

Oh yeah, I’m going there.

As I’m writing this post, I’m getting pre-cramps as we speak. They’re not exactly super painful like the real cramps are, but they’re definitely there and making their presence known. That can only mean one thing (no Drake).

My period is on the way.


Seriously, it’s no wonder I’ve been feeling melancholy the past few days. It always feels like forever since I had my last period, and yet when it does come around again it just serves as a reminder that time flies….

My cramps can become very unbearable. When they hit, they’re so powerful that sometimes I can’t even get out of my bed. In these times, I don’t wanna deal with anybody or anything, I just wanna go straight to the toilet and back to my bed so I can writhe in pain. When I was in high school, sometimes they got so bad that I had to call my mom to pick me up so I could go home. It was THAT BAD. And forget the freaking period cramps themselves, don’t you just love when the pre-period stuff starts coming in? I sure do…NOT. It’s not red but it’s the next obvious sign that you should bust out a pad or tampon depending on the time of day. Is this period talk making you uncomfortable? It really shouldn’t because periods are a part of womanhood. We all get them or have gotten them in the past; it’s Mother Nature’s cruel invention made to tell us “Hello, you’re not pregnant! See you in 28 days!”

Nothing has changed since then, they’re still pretty bad. I can manage going out for a whole day, but this is just me grinning and bearing it. Of course, I can’t just leave them alone, so these are some key ways I keep them at bay (the rhyming was unintentional):

  1. PAINKILLERS. Aleve, Tylenol, Advil, store-brand, generic brand, whatever you wanna call them or whatever you prefer. They should already be a necessity in your bathroom. I used to take only two ibuprofen and be done for the day, but since 2013 I bumped it up to 4. Two things about that:
    • DO NOT TAKE ALL OF THEM AT ONCE. My suggestion is to take two first. Wait about 10-30 minutes. If the pain hasn’t alleviated or worsens, take two more and consider it done.
    • DO NOT EXCEED 800 MCG. I personally have never done this and I don’t really know what would happen if I did, but I don’t really wanna know. Just don’t do it, okay?
  2. Makeshift laptop heating pad. You probably already use your laptop while you’re lying down anyway. The heat that comes from the bottom of my computer can work wonders when you’re cramping like mad. I should advise that while this has worked for myself and other girls, I sincerely DO NOT recommend doing this in an effort to replace a real heating pad. I’m just too poor to afford one. Try it every once in a while, but don’t make it a regular thing.
  3. Try not to think about it. This probably sounds like a moot idea when all you can think about are the cramps. They’re unavoidable. They want you to feel them. They take you for a weak bitch and try to ruin your day. But that’s where those cramps are sadly mistaken because you are the opposite of a weak bitch. You’re a strong woman who doesn’t take s^*# from ANYBODY, and cramps are nothing new to any of us. Try not to skip out on your day. Take some painkillers and really go about your day as usual. Before you know it, the day’s long gone! You’ll be thinking, “What cramps? I had cramps?”
  4. Yoga. Okay, I will admit I haven’t tried this specific practice out yet. But I have no qualms about this NOT working for your cramps. Yoga works for EVERYTHING: after a long day or week, stomachaches, indigestion, to boost confidence, anxiety reduction, the list is ENDLESS. I’ve been doing yoga since the beginning of this semester and holy moly, it’s a game changer. If you’re not able to attend a class, there is always Youtube (I highly recommend Yoga with Adriene, she’s super funny, personable and so encouraging that you never feel intimidated and you’re always pushed to do your best no matter what level of yoga you’re at, plus she has yoga practices for EVERYTHIIIIIIING)! This is the gist of it, but really I could go on about yoga for hours. In fact, I might just do that in a future blog post…*eyes emoji*

Periods can be the worst. Do I like the cramps, fatigue, mood swings, that pungent smell, and everything else that’s bad about them? No. But do I want to possibly stop having periods now?


Surprised? Sure, I’ve thought of what it’d be like to not have a period again. I even thought of getting a hysterectomy so I wouldn’t deal with periods again (but that’s just foolish)! But I actually kinda love getting periods. It’s a true sign of womanhood, and I love the sense of community it brings with other women, hence why I prefer living with other girls. You can’t ask a guy for a tampon.
There will come a time when I stop getting them, and I’ll be satisfied because I won’t have to deal with cramps anymore. But for now, my periods will gladly be here to stay.


Abeni, out!

P.S. I’m totally now on Facebook and this page is totally under construction (such is my life at the moment).


My Lipstick Collection – Part 1!

I think I have a legitimate borderline addiction to lipstick. I have a TON of them!

…Okay, okay, maybe not THAT much, but it sure is enough to play around with. Let’s cut right to it, shall we? Here are the MAC lipsticks I have amassed over the past 3 years.


L to R: Dubonnet, Viva Glam Miley Cyrus, Heroine, Instigator, Sin, Flat Out Fabulous, Ruby Woo

Top to bottom: Heroine, Flat Out Fabulous, Ruby Woo, Viva Glam Miley Cyrus, Dubonnet, Sin, Instigator





Ruby Woo (ignore the sloppy paintjob here)


Flat Out Fabulous
Heroine, Part I
Viva Glam Miley Cyrus
Heroine, Part II

While I have the option to buy some more lipsticks from MAC in the near future, I think I am satisfied with the 7 I have now. Maybe because 7 is my lucky number this year! Or just the fact that I’m super broke at the moment.

I’m especially happy with the choice of shades! Sin is my favorite for the latter half of the year when the winds get colder (sometimes in Florida) and I want to match that mood. I actually haven’t used Heroine in the longest time because the lipstick itself mysteriously broke off and I’ve needed to use a brush to apply it now, but it’s great because it stands out so well with my skin color and when I’m feeling hella adventurous.
Ruby Woo, though, is probably the BEST OF THE BEST red lipstick any girl could own. It’s radiant, it’s striking, it’s a confidence booster, it’s matte, AND it makes my teeth look whiter! Prior to when I bought it back in the fall of 2015, I read nothing but overwhelming praise for this very red lipstick. The minute I put it on my lips, it felt like a new beginning for me. I’d been searching for a great red lippy forever, and this was it. I still wear it on the days when I feel like putting in some effort and it makes me feel un-freakin’-stoppable. Bonus: It looks beautiful on EVERY skin tone, from pale to the darkest brown. 10/10 would highly recommend this lippy for your collection.

Overall, if there is one thing I’ve learned about myself so far with my personal lipstick knowledge, I tend to lean towards wearing mattes than creamier formulas. Maybe it’s a preference thing? Who knows, as I try out more lipsticks maybe it’ll be equal or even the other way around! Stay tuned for Part 2 of my lipstick collection! ^~^

Abeni, out!



My OOTD: November 10, 2016

The weather in Central Florida is getting nicer as of late. It was cloudy and rainy all of Wednesday, but yesterday the sky pulled a total 180. Sun was out, no clouds in sight. As the sun bowed out and the night started to creep in, the air got a little cooler each minute. In preparation for the next few days of cold weather (finally!), I wore this ensemble in an attempt to put in some effort into my outfit…for once.


This sweater is one of my favorite items because of its simplicity. The sleeves are a simple knit pattern and the front is a soft ribbed alligator skin style fabric. What makes it work are the zipper details on the collar that border this fabric. I paired this with a blue flowy A-line skirt, black tights, and black suede H&M loafers.

What I love about the tights is the back design. The silver stars are a really nice detail that is similar to back seam hosiery in their arrangement but more…G-rated, so to say.




2016-11-10-20-38-42Sweater: Calvin Klein | Skirt: Thrifted | Tights: Target | Shoes: H&M

Overall, I’m pleased with my outfit choice and the effort I put into it. I didn’t notice until a few hours ago how well coordinated the colors were: an overall theme of  black, blue, and gold. Even my nails right now are a bright blue!

This may be the shortest post I’ve written on this blog so far, but that’s the gist of my outfit choice! I’m so anticipating this cold weather coming in and I can’t wait to crack open my windows.

Abeni, out!


Adulthood Taught Me (And Will Definitely Teach You):

Okay, I can’t even attempt to hide it. Adulthood is hard and from the looks of it, it doesn’t look like it gets any easier. I mean, making phone calls??? Making my own appointments??? FILING TAXES???¿¿¿¿¿¿¿¿?¿???¿????


Can someone hurry up and invent a time machine already so I can go back to being a kid and not have to worry about this stuff?

No, but seriously. Adulthood isn’t all that bad…it’s taught me some valuable lessons for living life. Like what, you say?

  1. Keep your expectations low. Too many times before in life, I’ve set my expectations high for an event…only to be disappointed when nothing happens or things go south. With this, I learned that if you lower your expectations, you can’t be disappointed when things don’t go the way you expected them to. You can just say “Well, I kind of expected that.” The lower you keep your expectations, the happier you’ll be.
  2. Don’t rely on anyone. If you must do this, then always have a backup plan. I cannot stress this enough. There are times when people do not or cannot follow through with what they have to do…sometimes it’s out of their control, or sometimes it’s due to their own neglect. In the words of King Koopa from the Super Mario Bros. Ice Capades (yes, this was a very real thing because the 1980s), “You want to dominate the world, you have to do it yourself.”
  3. Trust no one. Just. Don’t. Do it. At all. Don’t leave your drink unattended at a bar or at a party or ANYWHERE. Don’t get into anybody’s car that you don’t know very well or hardly know at all. At the end of the day, the only person you should be trusting is yourself. This is extraordinarily short because it’s pretty self-explanatory.
  4. Doing things alone is not, never was, and never will be “uncool”. Maybe during high school, yes, but there’s a reason nobody wants to relive high school. No doubt high school was the most awkward 4 years of my life, and considering all the awkward years I’ve had so far, this says a lot. But ever since I started university back in Fall 2015, it opened my eyes to a whole new way of living. Eating alone is normal; I see it all the time and I do it all the time. It’s okay to go to an event by yourself; I’ve done it many times now and have this to say to YOU: Wanna go to that concert but have no friends to go with? Go anyway. Wanna try out a new yoga class, but confused about whether it’d be weird to go alone? Don’t worry about that, just GO. Wanna see that new Ryan Gosling movie at the new luxury theater with reclining chairs and alcohol? JUST DO IT! I promise you, nobody will care at all if you show up alone, eat alone, or do whatever alone. It tells others that you’re independent and don’t need the metaphorical crutch of another person to have a great time!
  5. It’s better to have a few close friends than a bunch of acquaintances. Would you rather have a ton of phonies and fakes as your friends? Or would you rather have one real friend that’s there for you in your hardest times and truly understands you? As an introvert, I tend to prefer having close friends and I never cared for acquaintances. I always think about this situation: if you were sinking in quicksand, between some acquaintance who barely knows you on the surface and a close friend who knows more about me than others, who do you think would save you? I think you know the answer to that.
  6. Life goes on. Put simply, shit happens. It sucks when it happens, but that’s life. It’s not gonna stop for anybody. Case in point: I was supposed to volunteer one Friday at a homeschooling academy, but once I finally got to the place, NOBODY WAS EVEN THERE. Talk about a disappointment! I thought to myself, “Well, I kind of expected this to happen,” so while I was pissed off that I wasn’t going to spend some time volunteering and working with kids, I couldn’t let it get to me the whole day. And guess what – I didn’t. I got back to campus, bought some Huey Magoo’s and a peach smoothie, and surfed the net on my laptop in anticipation for my yoga class at 5. In a nutshell, you have to just roll with the punches and go on with your life.
  7. Listen to your intuition. Especially if you’re a woman like me, your intuition will never fail you. Getting good vibes from someone or something? Good, that’s a great sign. Proceed. Are you getting negative vibes from somebody or something? That’s your intuition telling you to get the hell out of dodge. Do not ignore it or disregard what your gut feelings are telling you.
  8. REVIEW YOUR RESUMES FOR MISTAKES BEFORE YOU SEND IT IN OR GIVE IT TO SOMEONE. At Intern Pursuit two weeks ago, I gave out resumes to the companies that I was able to speak to before the time ran out. What I didn’t realize until two days after the fact, was that I SPELLED ONE WORD WRONG! *cue shocked emoji*

Luckily for the ones I was still interested in, I was able to send in an updated resume in time along with my cover letter and I still got a phone interview for one. Yay! But seriously, proofread all your professional stuff before you send it to the head honchos, because if you misspell one word on there and you want to work as some type of writer, they’re probably gonna think you’re nucking futs and throw it in the trash can. Oh, and they’ll also call it a case of beautiful irony.

  • Honorary mention: Growing apart is totally normal and a part of life. I can say for sure I grew apart from pretty much everyone in high school, but after graduating in 2012 I held on to this hope for the next 3 years that my lunch crew would stick around. Fast forward to now, it feels like we’re all in different places in life physically, mentally, and socially. Are we as close as we used to be? Not really. Are we enemies now? No! It’s just LIFE. We get older, we get wiser (well, most people anyway), we learn new things, garner new interests, discover new opportunities, meet new people, gain new responsibilities and priorities. We never stop learning about ourselves and the world around us, and it contributes to our mental growth every day. In short, people change. Sadly, it can be for the worse with some, but for others, it can be for the better. If you’ve grown apart from friends before, do NOT blame yourself because you are NEVER at fault. That’s Life™!

This is by no means a finite list, but these little lessons are some of the most important ones I’ve learned in life. I will never stop learning.

Abeni, out!

P.S. The featured image is totally crude on purpose.